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Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Without questioning...

So, I know I'm very sporadic with my posts but sometimes there just isn't time. I know, I need to make more time right? lol.

So, about a month ago a friend lost her mother and I was feeling some sort of way and actually worried for her but she made sure we all knew she was just fine. Her mother had been battling cancer for the second time. I lost my father to cancer along with an uncle in 09 and '10. Last summer I lost my grandmother but it was pretty much natural causes.  In the past 7 years I've lost so many important people that I struggle sometimes not to question God. I know that death is a part of life but why do they have to all be back to back and all be such big pieces of the puzzle?

Yesterday morning I lost my Godmother...to yes, cancer! She had been dealing with it and made all of us feel like things were getting better. So, when I got the call yesterday morning it took my breath away. She was such a big piece of the puzzle in my life. Why? but I didn't ask. I kept the "why?" to myself. I knew my Godmother loved God more than anything in this world. I was comforted in knowing that she did not have to suffer much. She experienced one day of pain, praise God. I know she is in heaven and about to celebrate Easter up close and personal. I look forward to the day we meet again.  My message to her was that I loved her and would miss her but could she please kiss my father for me. 

I have experience so much loss but I am eternally grateful for my experiences with all the loved ones I have lost for they were all memories that I will cherish forever. I am also thankful for the wonderful family I have and the friends because they all are here for me no matter what. How many can say that they have that? Not many. I am truly blessed. 

Forgive, Love, Live, Laugh and keep God first!

6 comments:

  1. Sorry about your Loss, but it's great that you are looking at the positives of the greatness of life and not at it all as negatives. Keep your head up High towards God and you and your family are in my prayers! - JT

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  2. Well said boo.. my feelings exactly.. Miss them just as much as you do.. you have been throught more than most could ever bare, I commend your strength and will to move forward. Virginia and your father would be so proud of you and your resilence :) Missing them both and knowing God's plans isn't always for us to understand, just know it's for the best :).

    Love you sis...

    Always here for you no matter what.

    Toni

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    1. Aww, thanks sis. I appreciate you and your friendship!

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  3. Luv your attitude even in this type of situation. I know exactly how you feel. I just came back from a funeral myself. Lost my great uncle this past week. Just keep in mind, we may not understand God's plan but he's always in control. And I think of it as God's way of saying "my child, your work here on earth is done. Now rest until I take you home." Stay strong.

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    1. You are so right, we often don't understand His plan but He definitely makes no mistakes and I do try to trust and rest in that. Thanks for your comment :o)

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